And his biggest dream came true; I remember quite well, he lived in flat no.013 in the building next to our street. His child born, he and his wife were coming back to their house when that accident took place, a road accident of a car with a bus. They were passing from the Hospital Road when his dream was lost forever. He and his wife had to be hospitalized for 2 weeks, they came back home, but they lost their child.

After a year his wife also died, because she wanted her child, but nature never returns anything which it takes back once.

After death of his wife, he knew that he should learn to live alone. But his heart was broken and all his love for children was overflowing.

Years passed, and then came I, people told us about his story. My mother showed some sympathy but I was always hatred of him (and I was wrong).

My brother loved him so much that daily after his school he went for his apartment. My brother was not alone, other children also liked him, may be because he loved children.

When I was 20 my hatred for him was increased. I thought that, he captured my brother’s whole childhood; he has also grown up but still loves him, however, now he visited him less.

My mother worked as baby sitter, but children liked him more than my mother.

I had no father so my mother was free (or she carried heavy chains of aloneness inside).

Till then, he became old like his apartment, most of people left that but he refused to leave that house in which his wife died. But children still went there to meet him.

One day, my mother went to him, they were friends. At that time I was also grown up and realized his feelings, now I also wanted to show sympathy for him. I also went there to meet him.

He said only a few words to me which I remember well; he said, “You are a nice girl, your brother came to me, he told me about you.” and showed a smile. His words and expressions delighted me.

Then it was my mother’s turn, but today she was a bit different. She said him, “You are old now, and this building is too. Now, you should leave this building, anything can happen here, especially when children visit you.”

But this ignited his anger and he refused again. My mother tried to convince him but he didn’t agree.

Next day, I went their alone, he was leaving the house.

I was happy that he understood, but his conversation with me changed this thought.

“Now, uncle! Where are you going?”

“To die.” He replied.

“But”, I was shocked.

“That is what others wanted?” he said.

I tried to talk to him but he didn’t reply.

“If I would get another life and I had to born again I would like to born in your house.”

I shouted on his back but he didn’t listened.

That is what happened last week. But I was shocked when yesterday I got that news. He was passing from the Hospital Road when he died in another car accident.

That Hospital Road, saved many lives, but destroyed his.

But now I have changed, now I have my own track, I have my own aim; No matter what, I will achieve my goal, I will become strong and show those people that I can also beat them.

I always lived alone because there was no one to help a weak man. They only came to me if there is some short work that I can do for them like blaming myself for their mistakes. I did let them do what they can and I become weaker.

But now situations have changed I got the most important thing that I lost; that was my confidence. Life fluctuates but I promise myself that one day I will show to everyone what I can do

No matter what…

When you were with me.

One day I was shoked when-

I didn’t was you beetween.

Others shouted and does whatever they can.

But I was watching your face that dawn.

I fargot everything, my mind was empty.

I asked question to myself am I redy?

Remembering those  nights when I was sick,

You sit neer my head saing something to me.

Remembering your face I forgot my pain

Cry for you to wash my stain.

I can bear words to my name

But when someone say something to you, I feel shame

Might fall down in my knees

As I’m fighting for your dreams.

Thou are finished for others,

But alive in my dreams.

Once you said I’m your heart.

I cry for you forever.

-Chetan Bhasin

Dedicated to my NANI [Died 15th August, 2008].

I can’t finish it ’cause I haven’t enough words.

There are many things in this world about which we cannot even think.

I had also found many of those things and captured in my tressure box.

I want to share my tressure box with everyone in this world.

If you are intrested in my world see it here:

The Tressure I Found(Click the coloured words)

Who is living with a false love,

Who doesn’t move on the point of gun,

Who blames himself for other’s mistakes.

Before actually on the death bed

That man is dead.

Who was sleeping all his life

And now searching for relief.

His life already has ended

But still he is searching for it.

But he won’t get it now, because

That man is dead.

Death is what

Which is known as the end.

You can see it now, before Armageddon.

All opportunities have ended

With this your death.

The things which you had not yet done,

Searching for it is impossible now,

Because now you are dead…

One day, as usual,

When I was thinking-

All alone.

A voice; came to me

Inside from the soul…

When I was searching

For a true friend-

In this false world.

I found only one friend,

Inside from the soul…

When I was thinking

About others’ hearts.

Why is it so small?

The answer came to me,

Inside from the soul…

The time when I was standing

Between two roads,

No one was with me.

But one came forward; it was

Inside from the soul…

Who was helped by a devil.

Like a strange breeze

It came to me

And asked me, why are you so changed

I had no answer in this situation

The time which changed me completely

The devil that ate my soul

They both were unable to touch it

At all…

I saw an angel

Who never changes with the time

It was one who was really very kind

It comes to me

And asks, why you have become so rough

Again, I was answerless

Then I saw its internal dress

Time which was eating my past

It also was quite

At all…

And the journey begins when his mind ran.

He is fast on his path as extreme speed of a car.

In his way he studies position of stars.

He never stops like the time,

Then he started doing crime.

He never thought what he is doing

As in the mouth of lion, a deer is going.

A man with gadgets is like a star with light

With it he grows trees of might.

He started computing as a new trend,

He takes it as he has got a new friend.

The time is not so far, it is coming soon

When he will start making his own boons.

Don’t wait in your house

Like a cat waiting for a mouse.

Take part, start management,

Because this time is only for development.

The future is coming, the man is running-

Go man keep working…

As usual when thinking in alone I found that others are very much better than me and I am a dumb kind of person. But that was the worst thought of my whole life. We should never think that we are dumb even if the whole world said same to us. If we are really thinking that we are a true dumb and if not we are the one who always getting a way between millions of problems. After some time when I was getting this point I came to a path where I found that I am different from others but not in that way which I was thinking before. And here is the proof, I am writing this which most of the people can not even understand, I thought how dumb they are as they thought that I am dumb. Even I feel sorry for those who are really a part of this world and do not know the truth of this world.

Many a times I see that a group of people is sitting together and saying other one a loser. They pretend to be very smart but they are not at all smart. If you individually visit them they will told you that those were his or her friends whom he is saying loser. I think that those people not even know the meaning of friend, how dumb they are. Even those people said to me that “you are my friend”, I also said them that “You are my best friend.” But if you individually ask me I will surly say that those are the worst people I’ve ever seen and they are not at all my friends. Do you know the reason that why will I do so? If not I will tell you. Actually, I ne’er like to fight with those people who are dumb and also I do like to make myself a step away from those.

Once my teacher asks me to tell then names of my friends I took only one name. My teacher replied “school is too big and you have only one friend. See the others they have a lot of friends.” I said to my teacher that:” Mam, actually most of the students do not have a single friend, at least I have one. Others have mates, schoolmates, partners but not friends.” Actually the word friend contains a very deep meaning which is not undertaken by most of the people.

And at that time I was the only person who knows all these things. And it is also a proof that I am not a dumb and I have different from others. This is the thing in me which makes me different from others, better from others. My thoughts are my best thing. This is the thing in me which makes me overtake all those who thought me dumb. And one day they will be frightened when they will see me ahead them…

Some kind of pain inside-

Can be seen through hopeless sighs.

Pain of the deep past

Inside the body-

Eating her very fast.

Everytime I see those eyes

Those were searching some hope-

From my side.

Unforgetful days of my life

Make me feels

A pain inside.

Life’s most painful part

Never before seen and in future-

I will never again see that.